what i know

for me, the hardest thing about writing is to decide what to write about. sometimes i have so many ideas swirling around in my head that making sense of them is nearly impossible. and sometimes i have no ideas at all. perhaps the best piece of advice i was ever given in order to conquer writer's block, is to simply write about what i know. and so for today, this is what i know.
i know that for perhaps the first time in my life, i am so comfortable with myself that i truly like being me. my thirties are my favorite decade so far.
i know that i fiercely love and cherish my children and that even though i struggle so thoroughly with this thing called motherhood, it is the most meaningful thing i will ever do.
i know that even with all of the stress and extra work that comes with being a single parent, i am so completely thankful that i get to raise my children alone. there is a peace that i have as a single mom that i never ever had as a married mom.
i know that there is more for me in this life than working a government job. i am thankful for a steady job that enables me to take care of my responsibilities, but i know with everything that is in me that there is something else out there for me. and it is spectacular.
i know that i love the smell of rain in the spring and the smell of brisk cool air in the fall.
i know that sushi is good and that i love wine.
i know that a good laugh can give me that extra push that i need to make it through a rough day.
i know that there is no replacement for the love of a good family and good friends.
i know that i love to cook and that there is comfort in what ultimately happens when i mix yeast with flour and water.
i know that i will get past this. that i have to get past this. because there are words inside of me that are fighting their way out.